What I meant was:

Okay, what I was trying to say is: There was this house, and I lived in it. And, then I didn't live in it for a while, and I sort of ceased to be for me because I wasn't there. All of a sudden someone is telling me that I don't live there any longer; someone else does. And, the numbers in my bank balance went up because I don't live there any longer. But, it wasn't real to me any more; so the money isn't real to me either. There's a part of me that just doesn't understand what this is all about, and there's a part of me that understands perfectly. I just wish they would get together.