Friday, July 13, 2012

Crocheting lately

My freeform piece was published in the book of the International Freeform Crochet Guild's 2012 Challenge: Inspired! Art and Music in Fiber. You can see my entry and all the others at the Guild's website .

I chose to interpret Georgia O'Keeffe's paintings of the red hills of New Mexico near Ghost Ranch. Although her paintings smoothed the hills into subtly shifting patterns of red, the real hills are marked with erosion, shifts in angle and light. The blue represents not only the sky but also the mountains behind the red hills.

I also participated in a group crochet-along (CAL) to bead crochet around a cabochon. Here are my two pieces:

And, I've done a small beret in Plymouth's Kudo yarn, a self-striping yarn:

A health program

Twelve step programs are a systematic way that we can employ to live fuller, happier lives. The first step is to admit you are powerless over (whatever) and that your life has become unmanageable. Then you come to believe that a power greater than yourself can and will help you manage. Thirdly, you turn your life and your will over to the care of that power greater than yourself (ie, God).

I began my alcoholic career in my early teens. One day in my 30s I awoke on the bathroom floor in my own vomit and was horrified at myself. I'd like to say that I quit drinking that day and never tasted alcohol again. Not that easy, but never that bad again.

In my late 30s I quit even trying to have a social drink - the bathroom floor image haunted me and my whole body rebelled against it. I admit that I've had a sip occasionally (maybe 4 times in 30 years), but I joined a 12-step group some 7 or 8 years ago.

That third step is the hardest for me. I've always known that my life was unmanageable - worse at times than others, but turning my will over to "someone" is not my idea of fun. So, I have to struggle in my non-alcoholic drunkenness for periods of time before I'm ready to turn my life and my will over to the care of God. There's a special prayer for that. And, sometimes I have to pray it for many days before I believe that I can do that. Eventually, the peace begins to settle on me, and my life becomes easier.

So, I'm praying again:
"God, I offer myself to Thee--to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life. May I do Thy will always!"(page 63, Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous)